My last post to this blog

I'm done dating so I'm done blogging about it. I'll let you know when I start another blog on a different subject.

Hope you found the first couple of stories amusing. And hope you didn't find the last one disturbing (like I did.)

UUGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Will he ever learn but worse still will I ever learn?! I think I got in the biggest fight ever with on again off again guy that I've been dating for the last year.

He was being a jerk and I was being a bitch. I think I've just been treated like shit too much in my life and when I get pissed, I get really pissed and take all that anger from all those years and tell the guy off.

I'm not saying that is real healthy (and I have been in therapy for it before...guess it's time to go back) but it is better than taking it.

But I just cannot seem to "walk away gracefully." No I gotta make a scene and tell him exactly all that he did wrong. I'm usually not a critical person. But when my heart is broken, I just turn into this crazy person that I am ashamed of (and can't believe my own behaviour afterwards.

Granted...again...he was a jerk to me but I just get in a rage. I am just SO damn tired of being treated like this...the audacity...especially at my age (44) I should not have to put up with the same shit I did when I was in my 20s!

And I can't believe a guy who is turning 40 next week is still pulling this shit.

Not to me anymore!

Find a 20 something...maybe she'll put up with it.

I really do like men and I have some several guy friends. But why is it I always pick the jerks to date???

I give up!

I'm joining a convent.

Too bad I'm not religious.

Sorry no amusing funny story with this one. I've lost my sense of humor about dating.

DATE=4 Letter Word

Don't! Run! (Flick You! I always wanted to say that...)

Don't! Run! (Flick You! I always wanted to say that...)
Originally uploaded by shutter.chick

dontrun part 3

Last night we had a fight over the phone and I started to cry. I don't cry that often in front of others but he seems to always bring me to tears. He hates it when I cry and rather than feeling bad or trying to comfort me he ordered me to stop all that unneccessary crying and to go deal with the frustration myself. The frustration that I was feeling and trying to express was because of him though. But he doesn't want to hear it. We've been through this before and he has called me a baby and weak.

This time, I kept crying but knew the whole time that he was the reason I am crying so after we hung up the phone, I sent him a break up text message. He returned one to me that said "go to sleep." What an ass! He was really condescending this time and I am not going to take it anymore.

I told him earlier that this time around with him is the last chance I'm giving him. He just blew it.

I sent a final text message to him that read "you really are an insensitive jerk."

I had a dream last night about a former abusive boyfriend (it was many years ago) and I don't think it is a coincidence. How I felt after last night reminded me of how I used to feel after being emotionally abused.

But the difference this time is that I know he is wrong and I only put up with it for one week. I may still pick the jerks but at least I unload them quickly.

Dontrun part2

So in only one week I went from being treated like a princess to being emotionally pushed off that pedestal. He obviously doesn't know me that well because I don't want to be a princess anyhow but to be treated with respect and as a regular human being.

He went from inviting me to Africa over Christmas with him to not even "committing" to a real date in only a week. He hasn't had any time to see me for two weeks and then after that maybe possibly we can "hook up." I hate that term, especially when we were together he kept saying how beautiful etcetcetc I was holding back and didn't really believe him because I've heard the big sweet talk from him before and he has hurt and disappointed me many times before.

Don't! Run!

I haven't blogged for a long time because I haven't been dating much and not finding much humor in the bad dates lately.

This entry is about Dotun (aka Don't! Run!...thanks to Andrea for the great pun!)

This was my third time around with Dotun. I'll tell you about the other two times some other time. And this one probably won't be as well written, funny and amusing as my other date stories because it is very fresh.

Dotun and I had great chemistry from the start but not compatibility. While opposites attract (in terms of looks as well as personality)do they get along? Not in this case.

A computer analyst and a social worker/artist/nanny...not a good match! Funny that we met on Match.com. I think they should call it fuck.com because it seems like that is all the guys that I have met on that site wanted. I like sex too (with the right person) but that is not all I want. I want much more. If that was all I wanted, I might as well hook up with an 18 year old.

Apparently Dotun thought we were just "hooking up" even though he said many things to lead me to believe otherwise (including calling me his sweetie and his princess...gag! I tried not to laugh when he said this.)

Story to be continued (back to work for me...)